But God…

On Friday, May 6, 2016 at 3:00 p.m. I proudly walked across the stage at Colonial Life Arena. Yes, I finally made it! I received my Bachelor of Arts degree in Journalism and Mass Communications with a concentration in Public Relations from the University of South Carolina.

It was such a surreal moment for me. I just knew that I was going to be in tears the whole day. However, I made it through without shedding a tear or being a complete psychopath. I was so in awe of the moment and being able to share it with my friends and family, of course.

This semester was not that stressful but it had its moments of course. As always, I worked hard and kept focus. I continuously prayed to God for a strong finish. It was one of those semesters where you know you’re working hard but are not too sure just how well you are doing. Well, I finished with three A’s and a B+ giving me a 3.8 GPA for the semester! And honey, that was all God.

So, now the journey begins. I look to the future with hope. I know that God has so much in store for me and I’m truly excited to see where he leads me.

So wherever you are in life, don’t give up. Keep fighting, keep praying, and don’t lose faith. If I had given up or allowed my stress and anxiety to get the best of me I would have not made it to this point in life. So be patient with yourself and like I said, don’t ever give up!

 

Forever to Thee!

Angel

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11  NIV

 

I Can See the Finish Line…

It is March, which means I only have one more full month before the end of the semester and graduation. It has truly been a long time coming. I thought this semester would be smooth sailing since I only have four classes, but the joke was obviously on me for thinking that. There’s always at least one professor that has to make your life a living hell. So that also somewhat explains by absence.

However, let’s try to get back on the bright side before I transition again. Graduation is Friday, May 6 at 3 p.m. on hopefully a bright and sunny day. I have truly worked my butt off for this very moment. There have been countless sleepless nights, tears, anger, and frustration the list goes on and on. But look at God! I made it!

Now, let us transition back to the “dark” side of this for a second. So of course with graduating comes the dreaded job search. While looking for a job and even a summer internship I have noticed something quite shocking and confusing. A lot of the entry-level job positions I have looked over require 2-3 or 3-5 years of experience. Now, I did say ENTRY-level positions. In what world do employers feel that it is necessary or better yet realistic for anyone to have that much experience for an entry-level position? On top of that many of them are marketing these positions to recent college graduates.

I’ve even recently seen a lot of internship positions ask that interns come in with 2-3 internships. Like excuse me? An internship is suppose to be an opportunity for students to gain experience and learn those needed skills to get an actual job position. So how can students do that if you treat it like you’re actually hiring for a legit position. I honestly feel like if you’re not trying to give students an opportunity to learn then there’s no need to even offer the opportunity. How can you turn down a student who has the drive and potential to learn just because they don’t have two, three, or more internships? All of this is just ridiculous and honestly quite stressful.

So a word of advice for you all and myself, don’t panic! It’s honestly okay if you don’t find something immediately after graduating. Society has placed these unrealistic expectations on students making us really believe that it is normal to walk right into a job or already have one lined up before crossing the stage. I will tell you it is a lie! Yes, some may have it work like that for them but for the majority that is not the case. So don’t give up or feel less than. Your time will come and you will shine. I mean we’ve made it this far so I know we can achieve so much more. I am believing and trusting in God and I know that through his grace I have accomplished so much so better is coming one way or another. Don’t stop believing!

With love and hope,

Angel

Hello 2016…

We are in the second week of 2016 and it has already been quite a rollercoaster for me. On Saturday, January 9th heaven gained a new angel, my grandmother Lois better known as Meme. She fought a yearlong battle with cancer and came out victorious in the end. With deep heartache we laid her to rest this Wednesday. Though it is a time of great sorrow, I feel a comforting sense of peace and joy knowing that she is in a better place and always encouraged us to keep living when this time came, so that is what I will keep doing.

I made myself a lot of promises for the New Year that I intend to keep. I owe it to myself to be better in every aspect of my life. I have let my health slip for the past four years and that has to end this year. There are so many different health issues affecting members of my family that I have turned a blind eye to. I can easily prevent myself from being dealt those cards by simply cutting back on a lot of things and working out more. You can’t truly love and respect yourself if you continually allow yourself to be lazy and waste away.

There are a few projects that I would like to work on and have been putting off for years. I have this intense fear of failure that cripples me. I am an intense over thinker and over analyzer and I drive myself crazy. I think too much into things and too much into every possible outcome that I deter myself from my own goals. I can’t continue living in that fear because eventually I will accept living a mediocre life and that is not me. It is my goal to have at least one of my projects up and running by summer and the others in the works to get started later in the year.

On a brighter and more exciting note, I graduate this coming May! I am beyond excited and proud of myself. There are only four classes standing between graduation and me. I am trying not to stress out on finding a job afterwards, well at least not now.

I am just so pumped for what 2016 has in store for me. I can feel that this is going to be a very exciting yet interesting year. Of course, I will take you all on this journey with me. This blog will be experiencing a lot more activity and some great changes this year. So please stay tuned and spread the word.

With love,

Angel

Where Ya At?

As I type I hear Mase’s 2004 hit “Welcome Back” playing in my head. I have finally returned from a four-month hiatus. It surely was one I did not plan for. I told myself this summer that I would keep up with this blog but school said otherwise. This following semester was by far the most stressful semester I have ever experienced. Giving up is never an option for me but I will say I was very close to losing it a few times. The amount of pressure I felt this semester was nearly unbearable but is sadly expected during ones college career.

So in a nutshell I put all my focus and time into school and nothing else. This is something that I do regret yet in a sense don’t regret doing. I don’t regret it because I came out with a 3.8 GPA this semester but I do feel that if I had another outlet I would have been less stressed. We all during stressful times need some sort of activity to keep us balanced and sane.

Putting this semester’s hardship behind me I am glad and relieved to welcome myself back. I have been keeping note of countless ideas that kept popping up throughout the semester. So, it is very safe to say that there is a lot to come for LoveGraceandBeauty and possibly some changes. So please stay tuned for much more activity and growth in the New Year. 2016, I look forward to you and the success you have in store for us all.

 

As always with love,

Angel

 

The Ties That Bind

This past Saturday my maternal grandfathers side had their first annual family reunion, which was amazing. I honestly was not that excited about it because like some people I hate the nonstop questions and the awkward moments where people force you to remember them. However, as time went by and I observed how much fun everyone was having I could not stop smiling. It is nothing like family, seriously. I could have sat and watched everyone laugh and have fun all day. Before we parted ways my family all agreed that we would continue this every year.

I have noticed that a lot of families don’t get together anymore whether it is for Sunday dinners or holidays. I know my moms’ side of the family always tries to come together on the holidays. However, I can’t say the same for my dads’ side. There is so much toxic tension, which is sad and pathetic. At what point in life do family members get comfortable and content with not communicating?

At the beginning of the summer I got with my close cousin on my dads side and we discussed how much our family has fallen apart and came up with different things we could do to bring everyone back together. We didn’t do much at all this summer like we planned but I plan to really get us back right. After watching how my moms’ side is I feel even more motivated and determined to get my family back on one accord.

In these hard and trying times we all need each other. Family is and has always been important. I can’t continue to go through life knowing that my family lives so close to each other (like neighbors) and can’t even get together for dinner or call and check on each other. So if you are in this situation please try to pull your family together. The last thing I want to see is something bad happen and people have to live on in regret.

Angel

Family is not an important thing, it’s everything. – Michael J. Fox

Listen up Freshmen!

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Well, I Never….”

After high school I was absolutely certain that I was fully prepared for college. I had my books, schedule, a few friends, and thought I was going in with my proitites in order. I had already been warned that your first semester in college was a true test. I found myself so caught in the moment of making new friends and going out that I forgot why I was really there. Now, my grades were not bad but they could have been much better if I had applied myself and put my school work first.

I don’t know about you guys but my dad helped me financially with school and still does. However, if it’s you on your own or if you have help from others please be serious with school. The last thing you want to do is waste you or someone else’s money because you decide you want to slack off in school.

I’m definitely not saying lock yourself in your dorm or wherever you’ll be living and devote your entire time to your work. I encourage you to go out and make friends as well. College is a great experience where you will meet great and not so great people and truly learn more about yourself. However, I want you to put your work first and keep your priorities in order. Yes, the parties will be tempting but don’t step out that door if your work isn’t done. You have 4 years to party and have fun so please use your time wisely.

Angel

Oh, to Dream Again

I came across a recent blog post of Anxious Pen titled, See, and Answer, and it really struck a nerve in me, in a deep and profound way. It made me miss the childhood me. I know, as we get older especially after high school we all wish time didn’t move so fast or that reality wasn’t so real. However, it wasn’t like that at all. His poem made me want that little girl who had all these hopes and dreams and knew she was going to conquer the world. It made me wonder what happens to us as we age? When do we start canceling and walking away from that dreamer mentality? I knew as a child I wanted to be a gymnast, then a veterinarian, and finally a lawyer. I recently cancelled that lawyer dream because as a current college student I can’t see myself doing anymore school, at least not now. I just can’t seem to remember when I left that spirit behind. Now, I just want to accomplish maybe one or two things and call it a day. What happens to us that we lose that? Can we ever get it back? I feel like we all still have that child dreamer within us but life and reality are so strong that maybe it suppresses them deep within us. It’s quite scary to know that such an important part of us is drained out and we don’t even realize until it’s possibly too late. I have this urge now more than ever to fight to bring that part of me back. To just be able to walk around with such confidence and imagination with a page full of goals and dreams seems like such a better life. A life full of hope, wonders, and joy. I know that in reality we can’t be everything we want to be but does that mean we have to walk around like that. To me that seems kind of depressing. I’m not saying we should walk around in denial but walk in hope and with purpose that you can still do it all with peace knowing its okay if you don’t. So, I hope this encourages you to fight to bring out that little dreamer that has been hiding for some time.

With love,

Angel