On Friday, May 6, 2016 at 3:00 p.m. I proudly walked across the stage at Colonial Life Arena. Yes, I finally made it! I received my Bachelor of Arts degree in Journalism and Mass Communications with a concentration in Public Relations from the University of South Carolina.
It was such a surreal moment for me. I just knew that I was going to be in tears the whole day. However, I made it through without shedding a tear or being a complete psychopath. I was so in awe of the moment and being able to share it with my friends and family, of course.
This semester was not that stressful but it had its moments of course. As always, I worked hard and kept focus. I continuously prayed to God for a strong finish. It was one of those semesters where you know you’re working hard but are not too sure just how well you are doing. Well, I finished with three A’s and a B+ giving me a 3.8 GPA for the semester! And honey, that was all God.
So, now the journey begins. I look to the future with hope. I know that God has so much in store for me and I’m truly excited to see where he leads me.
So wherever you are in life, don’t give up. Keep fighting, keep praying, and don’t lose faith. If I had given up or allowed my stress and anxiety to get the best of me I would have not made it to this point in life. So be patient with yourself and like I said, don’t ever give up!
Forever to Thee!
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 NIV
We are in the second week of 2016 and it has already been quite a rollercoaster for me. On Saturday, January 9th heaven gained a new angel, my grandmother Lois better known as Meme. She fought a yearlong battle with cancer and came out victorious in the end. With deep heartache we laid her to rest this Wednesday. Though it is a time of great sorrow, I feel a comforting sense of peace and joy knowing that she is in a better place and always encouraged us to keep living when this time came, so that is what I will keep doing.
I made myself a lot of promises for the New Year that I intend to keep. I owe it to myself to be better in every aspect of my life. I have let my health slip for the past four years and that has to end this year. There are so many different health issues affecting members of my family that I have turned a blind eye to. I can easily prevent myself from being dealt those cards by simply cutting back on a lot of things and working out more. You can’t truly love and respect yourself if you continually allow yourself to be lazy and waste away.
There are a few projects that I would like to work on and have been putting off for years. I have this intense fear of failure that cripples me. I am an intense over thinker and over analyzer and I drive myself crazy. I think too much into things and too much into every possible outcome that I deter myself from my own goals. I can’t continue living in that fear because eventually I will accept living a mediocre life and that is not me. It is my goal to have at least one of my projects up and running by summer and the others in the works to get started later in the year.
On a brighter and more exciting note, I graduate this coming May! I am beyond excited and proud of myself. There are only four classes standing between graduation and me. I am trying not to stress out on finding a job afterwards, well at least not now.
I am just so pumped for what 2016 has in store for me. I can feel that this is going to be a very exciting yet interesting year. Of course, I will take you all on this journey with me. This blog will be experiencing a lot more activity and some great changes this year. So please stay tuned and spread the word.
I came across a recent blog post of Anxious Pen titled, See, and Answer, and it really struck a nerve in me, in a deep and profound way. It made me miss the childhood me. I know, as we get older especially after high school we all wish time didn’t move so fast or that reality wasn’t so real. However, it wasn’t like that at all. His poem made me want that little girl who had all these hopes and dreams and knew she was going to conquer the world. It made me wonder what happens to us as we age? When do we start canceling and walking away from that dreamer mentality? I knew as a child I wanted to be a gymnast, then a veterinarian, and finally a lawyer. I recently cancelled that lawyer dream because as a current college student I can’t see myself doing anymore school, at least not now. I just can’t seem to remember when I left that spirit behind. Now, I just want to accomplish maybe one or two things and call it a day. What happens to us that we lose that? Can we ever get it back? I feel like we all still have that child dreamer within us but life and reality are so strong that maybe it suppresses them deep within us. It’s quite scary to know that such an important part of us is drained out and we don’t even realize until it’s possibly too late. I have this urge now more than ever to fight to bring that part of me back. To just be able to walk around with such confidence and imagination with a page full of goals and dreams seems like such a better life. A life full of hope, wonders, and joy. I know that in reality we can’t be everything we want to be but does that mean we have to walk around like that. To me that seems kind of depressing. I’m not saying we should walk around in denial but walk in hope and with purpose that you can still do it all with peace knowing its okay if you don’t. So, I hope this encourages you to fight to bring out that little dreamer that has been hiding for some time.