We are in the second week of 2016 and it has already been quite a rollercoaster for me. On Saturday, January 9th heaven gained a new angel, my grandmother Lois better known as Meme. She fought a yearlong battle with cancer and came out victorious in the end. With deep heartache we laid her to rest this Wednesday. Though it is a time of great sorrow, I feel a comforting sense of peace and joy knowing that she is in a better place and always encouraged us to keep living when this time came, so that is what I will keep doing.
I made myself a lot of promises for the New Year that I intend to keep. I owe it to myself to be better in every aspect of my life. I have let my health slip for the past four years and that has to end this year. There are so many different health issues affecting members of my family that I have turned a blind eye to. I can easily prevent myself from being dealt those cards by simply cutting back on a lot of things and working out more. You can’t truly love and respect yourself if you continually allow yourself to be lazy and waste away.
There are a few projects that I would like to work on and have been putting off for years. I have this intense fear of failure that cripples me. I am an intense over thinker and over analyzer and I drive myself crazy. I think too much into things and too much into every possible outcome that I deter myself from my own goals. I can’t continue living in that fear because eventually I will accept living a mediocre life and that is not me. It is my goal to have at least one of my projects up and running by summer and the others in the works to get started later in the year.
On a brighter and more exciting note, I graduate this coming May! I am beyond excited and proud of myself. There are only four classes standing between graduation and me. I am trying not to stress out on finding a job afterwards, well at least not now.
I am just so pumped for what 2016 has in store for me. I can feel that this is going to be a very exciting yet interesting year. Of course, I will take you all on this journey with me. This blog will be experiencing a lot more activity and some great changes this year. So please stay tuned and spread the word.